"Why Do I Write?"

No picture for this one. Just wrote a spoken word poem that I wanted to share. I'm a little tired so I know this may not make 100% sense, but I hope you get something out of it.....

Why do I write a question I ask myself all the time

I try to figure out the structue thats the backbone of my rhyme

I wasn't born in a ghetto or a place where raps and hip hop is the norm

I grew up in a home of country where all I heard was Alan Jackson or Conway Twitty

But something switched me to where I'm now confronting Sylvester as a humble Twetty

I didn't grow up with my parents lived with my great grandma

Did not feel the love that I wanted but was able to bury those feelings deep

How deep? I don't know possibly 6 feet deep.

Deep enough that it took 18 years of life for me to realize what I did with those feelings

So why do I write? I guess I write to tell people what I've gone through

The things that I have fallen in love with and what I want to pursure

I think back and think how many times I just wanted to end it all

all i would need was one call could have let myself go but no

God had a different plan but I get tired my mind hurts cuz i am just man

Twenty oh 4 that was when I was introduced to a new culture

Started writing because I wanted to escape

Wanted out of something I didn't know I was in

But God was like "nope. You have something to learn with this"

The life I wish I had lived I now don't miss

Yea I miss stuff I didn't have.

And I get angry with what I didn't have

What wasn't given to me what I didn't earn

I've learned that I am who the Bible says as poor and needy

But I wrestle with the thought that people need me

Or that I need them

So why do I write when I don't even know how to splice each line

each word to me carries a weight that I can't feel but feel the affect

I've learned survival skills to not fully trust anyone or anything

But I want to let that go because I want to be able to answer the question

of why do I write then I'll know why I love music so much

Piano is my breakfast want some of those bells for lunch

for dinner I'm going to eat up those drums and bass

cuz I feel it banging in my stomach to the point of explosion

God gives me the lessons he writing my sheet putting in the notations

each bar is not abstract it is writen in a melody and a scale

one that even we don't know and we know a lot of scales

I was written in a cleft that isn't treble or bass

a cleft that has been with me all of my life

and I have to remind myself everyday that the cleft hasn't left

and won't leave not even when I reach that last meausre

an al coda that goes to the part of the sheet that sounds the most pleasure

Many instruments were used in the making of this song.

Some of them did get hurt, but some of them became more fine and better tuned

so don't let your string or keys go untuned

So why do I write because I'm a story teller of a sound that has words and at the same time none

I write because I realize that when i write I don't understand what I'm talking about until the day that I've won

I am not second or third or fourth not a major or even worthy of a minor and by law I'm not a minor

but I can't be an adult in the eyes of the Lord cuz I still need diciplined

I'm not the winner but Jesus is the winner in me

So when I ask myself why do I write I do it because I know that it's not about what I can get from it

but what I give to it to give to others

I don't write to tell my story I am just the methaphor of a bigger story you could say it's a story within a story

but no inception because thats not a dream that I want to have and I won't have.

So why do I write? I think I'll let the pen continue explaining...

Richie Tha Rapper